I bring out my extroverted feeling attitude when I am in a communication mode. This mode is caring towards the listener accompanied with patience, understanding and warmth. This also brings happiness that enables effective communication. This has been my communication behaviour for as long as I know.
Everything changed for a short moment a couple of weeks ago when I was in a meeting. I have known the participants in this meeting for more than a decade. We have sat in numerous meetings and they have always been amicable.
This latest meeting that happened a couple of weeks ago, started as usual with pleasantries. About half an hour into the meeting, my mode of communication moved from extroverted feelings to extroverted thinking where the sound of my voice was harsh, every word was emotionless and a very tense atmosphere began to hang on. In addition to that, the conversation in the meeting was among three people only and the others were quiet and did not contribute to the meeting. My demeanor brought about more speechlessness, I guess.
I could feel the tension and realized what I have brought about. I just could not shake it off and the meeting came to an end with others bringing more cordiality.
As the meeting came to a close, I apologized for my behaviour to the chairperson and later that night wrote him an email with more apologies. It was a good lesson learnt and felt better after admitting to my wrongful attitude.
